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Sweet boy.

I have an empty bottle which your secrets should have filled. Those bottles that wash up on the shore.

You know, I didn’t get to meet these other women in your life you love dearly, the ones who make me jealous.

We didn’t have any fights.

No make up sex.

No inside jokes.

We didn’t develop our own language and rhythm.

We didn’t have any lazy days on the couch. We didn’t have ordinary days of dishes and tasks. Those tired and quiet days when love mixes with routine.

I didn’t get to bake you your favorite pastry for your birthday.

You didn’t surprise me on Lovers Day.

I wish we went running together around Green Lake. I wish we took those sunset walks. I wish I said yes when I had you